tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53855792738310192512024-02-02T08:23:39.628-08:00From the Midst of a Thousand Thoughts Comes...My sporadic ramblings of sorts...as it were.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.comBlogger89125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-11417416689237256472013-06-17T22:55:00.003-07:002013-06-17T22:55:38.328-07:00Time<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Time's been on my mind as of late, where it goes, how it changes things, and acts in so many ways. </div>
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Time is an amazing healer. Apply enough time to almost any wound and notice how the pain dulls and fades away, at times making it seem as though the event never even happened.</div>
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Time can bring perspective, and yet it can twist it as well. It's amazing how it can make horrible things seem not so horrible, mediocre things seem great, and work in reverse as well. Have you ever thought back on something that seemed life changing at the time, but in hindsight life went on and hardly skipped a beat? How about the friend who you'd forgotten was so amazing and felt great to be around because time had stepped in between the two of you?</div>
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Time can be so cruel, and sometimes we feel like we're a slave to it with not enough hours in the day; yet time can seem like such a gift when there is so little available to us and we can appreciate just waking up each day. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-72542280558803726652012-08-23T22:12:00.000-07:002012-08-23T22:12:04.177-07:00Saying Goodbye to a Childhood Friend<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Today death appeared in my inbox. I was at work when I received an e-mail from an old mission companion notifying me that a mutual friend of ours had been murdered. It was a weird sensation to realize that the news story I kept hearing about on the radio about a body found in an LDS parking lot now had a name and a face put to it, and it was a childhood friend who was like my little brother growing up. <div>
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As I sat there processing the information, I remembered having had the thought in the last week or two that death isn't something that really gets to me like a lot of people, that I can accept it for what it is, and while obviously saddened for the loss of loved ones, it's not a terrible thing. But THIS, this did get to me. I felt my heart grow heavy immediately, and I realized that this IS a terrible thing! </div>
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I think that too often I allow myself to think that I'm more in control of myself and my emotions and my environment than I really am, and I think that I am able to do this because very rarely do I come up against circumstances where this mental illusion is challenged. It's easy to feel removed and unattached when reality is not right there, standing in your path demanding honesty. The truth is that I'm NOT in control. I'm not in control of my environment and all the forces that are involved in it. Sure I can safeguard myself, and sure I can make decisions that shape my future and events in my life, but things can change in an instant as Mike found out last night as he had has life taken from him, and hearts can be devastated as his friends and family found out this morning upon the delivery of the heart-breaking news. I'm not in control of my feelings either. Sure it's one thing when a grandparent passes away who has lived a full life and you have time to deal with and cope with inevitable. I don't necessarily feel the need to be heartbroken in circumstances such as these. BUT situations like these are hard to accept with a glad heart because I know that last night the world was cheated yet again. </div>
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I haven't spoken to Mikey in years, and I haven't been close with him since we were kids, but I know who Mikey was when we were kids, and from reading people's comments on Facebook, it's apparent that he stayed his kind, fun-loving self up until his last breath. The world is ALWAYs cheated to have a person like Mike taken from it, and it truly is an event to be mourned, and an experience that no family or friend should have to cope with...and yet so many do have to find their way through these tragically dark times in which there must often appear to be no light at the other end. Knowing that Mike's family was cheated of many more years of memories and experiences with them just makes me want to cry out for them as I imagine the heartache and grief that they must be going through right now. Time will move on and eventually the hurting and the pain of Mike's loved ones will subside and eventually heal if they turn to the Lord and seek his comfort, but I have no doubt that Mike will always be remembered by those whose lives he touched as he brought cheerfulness to those around him.</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-807355826387891012012-06-22T22:57:00.001-07:002012-06-22T23:01:52.852-07:00Melodic MysteryA beautiful, still summer night, I'm driving down a back country road. Windows down, sun roof open, a warm yet refreshing night breeze flows through the car. A familiar yet unknown melody of a classical composition plays in the background. On a familiar path traveled much before, yet still uncertain of what might emerge at the end of my headlight's beams as the unknown presents itself. It doesn't matter. For this short stretch of road, everything feels as it should. For a brief few minutes, everything is in harmony. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-34864948070520366302012-05-30T21:26:00.001-07:002012-05-30T21:26:59.366-07:00SummerStill summer nights with just the right breeze are my favorite therapeutic relief when life is weighing me down. Weight lifted. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-31871311167193460472012-05-01T23:17:00.001-07:002012-05-01T23:17:45.990-07:00You know you're a cheese ball when...It literally makes you sad that Winnie and Kevin, from the tv show The Wonder Years, don't end up together...and it never gets any easier every time you watch the concluding episode. <br />
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Unbeknownst to me, Elder Neal A. Maxwell wrote a short book called <i>The Enoch Letters. </i>It follows the same idea as <i>The Screwtape Letters</i> by C.S. Lewis. Elder Maxwell's book is much shorter and all but the last letter are from the pen of the character Mahija who becomes one of the residents of the city of Enoch. I highly recommend reading it as it's a short, fun, but very poignant collection of principles and lessons. Here's a few of the quotes that stuck out to me:<br />
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See the creepy mime above? Look ridiculous? Yeahhh, lil bit. You might even be thinking to yourself, "never going to see me do that!" Don't be so quick with the pronouncments, my friend.<br />
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We live in a land and culture that glorifies freedom. Freedom from oppression, freedom to seek out new opportunities, and the freedom to live our lives how we want to. Sure not everyone has the same playing field, but we're also not stuck by social rules into a caste system. The freedom is there to overcome the odds of poverty, barriers to education, and other disadvantages that we may have been dealt. If you're religious, there's a good chance that your spiritual outlook is also based around freedom. Freedom from appetites, freedom from temporal things, and freedom from anything that holds us back from true happines and peace, what some might even refer to as nirvana.<br />
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So what's freedom got to do with a creepy guy (No offense, Mr. Mime) in an imaginary box? Look a little closer. Recognize yourself yet? Okay, so let's hope that isn't really you. If it's a family member, I apologize. Obviously that's not literally you, but I bet that if you think for a while, you can figure out a specific time in life, or maybe even a certain ongoing area(s) of your life where you do put yourself into an imaginary box (I ain't hatin' if you've put yourself in literal boxes for entertainment. I'm just as guilty as the next. What? It's been a rough economy, alright?). So why do we do it?! What a juxtaposition of mindsets! Where is the logic here? "I want to be free so I can limit myself?" What is it about human nature that dares to envision uninhibited range of motion in our lives, and at the same time allows ourselves to entrap ourselves into these imaginary, and closed in spaces?<br />
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It literally breaks my heart to see good, genuinely kind people hurt themselves by submitting themselves to the same inflictions time after time. Whether it be destructive addictions like pornography, drugs, alochol, etc. it makes me sick inside to see these people turn back to what never has brought them happiness and what never will. Especially those who find themselves going back to the same type of individuals for relationships, because they don't see that there's so much more out there. It doesn't seem to matter how badly they were hurt before.<br />
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So I ripped off my title from the song "The End of the Innocence". Now it's stuck in my head...but I digress...<br />
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Last week was a very interesting week for me. It had me feeling extremely humbled and doubting myself due to some occurrences and situations in my life that just were not going my way. Oddly enough, in that same week that I was feeling unlike my usually pretty confident self, I was told by one person that I come across as being arrogant, and was then told by someone else that another person had called me arrogant very recently. Needless to say, I found some irony in the fact that I was told I am perceived by multiple people as being arrogant during a week when I felt much less sure of myself than I even usually do.</div>
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The thing that struck me odd about people's perceptions that I am arrogant is that one just has to be around me a few minutes in a casual setting to realize that I'm not that way at all...at least I hope that's all it takes. I'm a goofy person who doesn't mind ridiculing myself in good humor, and I make it a point to try not to be prideful, and I thought I was doing a fairly decent job at it. It could be that my silent demeanor in some cases is misconstrued as not wanting to socialize, but I find that hard to believe since the only time that I really am quiet is when I'm around a girl that I really like and all the sudden can't find anything worthwhile to say. Who knows? I do realize that often times, those who are quick to peg others as being arrogant, only do so because they're insecure themselves...well, I guess a lot of the time, people really ARE just arrogant. Either way, my feelings aren't hurt. I just won't descend from my level to bother mingling with them....ohhhhhhh, now I see it! :D</div>
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<i style="background-attachment: initial; background-clip: initial; background-color: transparent; background-image: initial; background-origin: initial; border-bottom-width: 0px; border-color: initial; border-image: initial; border-left-width: 0px; border-right-width: 0px; border-style: initial; border-top-width: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px; margin-left: 0px; margin-right: 0px; margin-top: 0px; padding-bottom: 0px; padding-left: 0px; padding-right: 0px; padding-top: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">School thy feelings; condemnation</i></div>
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So there I was sitting in Sacrament meeting today, and I had a cool experience happen. It's that experience that brings with it an "Ooohhhhh, I'd never really thought of that before" type of feeling. The Sacrament was being passed around and the doors to the chapel were closed, when all of the sudden the crowd outside in the foyer began to get very loud. This isn't a new scenario since it happens on a frequent basis, BUT the thought that came to my mind WAS new to me.<br />
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As I was sitting there, I thought how about how loud the people outside were and that it took away from the reverence of the Sacrament. Then I thought about how it was good that we had the doors closed, or else the noise would be significantly louder than it already was. Not deep enough for you? Yeah yeah, just listen where I'm going with this...as I thought about how the doors helped to close out noise and create a more sacred and reverent atmosphere, I thought about those who were outside in the foyer who would partake of the Sacrament, were not getting out of the experience what those who were within the confines of the chapel were able to, due to the noise that surrounded them; a noise that was not being muffled or lessened by anything. Often times, the individuals who are out there are those who were not able to make it on time and as a result had to wait until the Sacrament was over before entering the chapel. This made me think of the 10 virgins, those who were prepared and were able to enter in when the time came, and those were not able to due to lack of preparation, procrastination, and other choices. <br />
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As I sat there in the chapel I thought to myself, how the Sacrament, and the closing of the doors is actually a very symbolic ordinance of closing out the world and drowning out the noise, allowing ourselves to tune into the still, small voice of the Spirit that often times we do not hear as we are in the midst of all the noise around us. By making certain choices, we place ourselves in this situation once a week to be able to focus on the Savior and renew our covenants with Him, while dwelling in an atmosphere where the Spirit can speak to us, thereby affording us the possibility of greater peace, and happiness than we would find outside of the sanctuary, albeit a brief one.<br />
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Anyway, I guess it's not really deep, and I'm sure that this has dawned on many people before, but it was a cool experience because today I had the opportunity to benefit from the reverence of the a environment in which I found myself, thanks to making good choices. It was a welcome experience.</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-2100019890533252632012-01-06T01:23:00.000-08:002012-01-06T01:23:19.442-08:00They weren't lying...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
So, I drank a "5 Hour Energy Drink" around 10:30 p.m. because I knew I'd need to stay up a while studying for my last final that I'm FINALLY taking tomorrow. Problem is, I decided about three hours into studying that I'd take my chances on the final tomorrow. Tried going to sleep. Turns out that true to their word, I'm getting every minute out of the 5 hour promise. Obviously I had to take a few minutes to peruse the blog world and good old Facebook before I give in and return to studying. I hope everyone else is sleeping well!</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-59983343873808903252011-12-24T23:23:00.000-08:002012-01-03T11:46:42.728-08:00A Revival of Sorts<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Here I am again wide awake on Christmas Eve. It reminds me in a way of being a child again and not being able to sleep due to the anticipation of what Santa would bring me. Those days were fun, because I was excitedly putting my hope into something that I could not prove to be true, but was perfectly content with believing nonetheless. Furthermore, I was investing all of my efforts into hoping that I'd receive a gift that I could not procure for myself. I did not have a way to obtain these awesome items because I did not have sufficient means with which to do so.<br />
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The excitement that I feel tonight is similar in a way to that of my childhood, but for a different reason. It didn't take long into my childhood to figure out that Santa was not real, but instead a fun character that helps to bring mystery and joy to an enjoyable holiday. Not only that, but quite frankly, I can obtain for myself those material things that I wish to obtain, which means that there is no need for anxious waiting of presents to be opened in order to see if what I want is under the Christmas tree. No, the causes of the excitement that I feel are not the same as they were 20 years ago. While I am still excited by a gift that I quite often hope to receive and to be able to apply to my life, it is not a temporal gift advertised on tv. It's the gift of the Savior; it's the gift of mercy and unconditional love. This gift I cannot procure for myself, no matter how much money I make, or what my connections are. This is a gift that only comes from the heavens. While this is not a gift that is only available to me on Christmas, I've had the blessing tonight of being able to read back through some previous blog entries and to be able to see just how much of an influence the gospel has, and continues, to play in my life. This is the greatest gift I could ever be given, and it needs no flashy wrapping paper or decorative bow to make it any more appealing. </div>
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MERRY CHRISTMAS!</div>
</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-33016386367077451402011-11-30T19:06:00.001-08:002011-11-30T19:33:25.097-08:00"Earn This"<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I just finished watching the movie "Saving Private Ryan" with my roommate. Prior to this, as roommates, we watched the "Band of Brothers" mini series. As I watched on TV a depiction of the blood and horror that engulfed those soldiers in the conquest that they undertook in order to defend the freedom of mankind, it aroused a great sense of gratitude in me. While always having been thankful to those brave and selfless men and women who are willing to lay down their lives, I've been reminded in the past couple of weeks of the debt that I owe to these amazing individuals whose lives spans across countless generations.<br />
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I realize that watching it on TV doesn't begin to give me an idea of what it was truly like to be out there on the battlefields of hell, lying in wait for a mortar shell to randomly land next to me; perhaps even wishing it would so that the seemingly endless misery might be brought to an end. I am aware that I will almost certainly never have to stand face to face with the enemy in desperate gun fire hoping to kill him before he kills me. For this, I have an even deeper and swelling gratitude than I had previously realized as I watched these dramatic scenes reenacted; for I know that despite Hollywood's usual tendency to over dramatize everything else, they cannot begin to tap into the misery and torment that those soldiers must have felt as they counted each day passing by, only hoping that they would live to see the next, and most importantly hoping that they would live to see the day that they would arrive home once again, to resume the peaceful lives from which they had been ripped away; I imagine that the dream of every solider must have been that day that they would be allowed to awake from their worst nightmare that had become their reality.<br />
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The very end battle scene in "Saving Private Ryan" really just pulled on my heart strings as Tom Hanks' character is sitting on the bridge bleeding to death and the last words that he speaks to Private Ryan are "Earn this." I know that the message is applicable to all of us, and should not be a new idea to me; the idea that every day of my life should be devoted to making this world a better place; a memorial to those who have laid down their lives for it. However, the idea of that man actually speaking the words to the fellow soldier for whom 8 lives specifically were spent in the mission to save his left a powerful impression upon me.<br />
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The movie is now over, and I'll soon be lost in the thoughts of my finance course work, and listening to Christmas songs streaming from Pandora, while I sit comfortably at my desk, in my room, in peaceful, pleasant Orem, Utah. I know that this feeling will reside and I'll become distracted with other things that seem pressing; but I hope that I always am able to keep the mindset of "earning this" freedom that has been so courageously and selflessly gifted to me. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-3211213072112029002011-11-06T16:04:00.000-08:002011-11-06T16:04:34.019-08:00You're Average<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I was reading in the scriptures today (It's true, I swear!) and I came across the word "mean". This led me to ponder regarding the originas of the adjective, as it is used to describe someone who is ill-mannered, or malicious in their comments or actions. <br />
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In statistics the word "Mean" is used to describe the "average" or the middle. In this case then, is the word "mean" intended to describe someone who is negative or ill-mannered as "average"? If so, when we use the word "mean" are we insinuating that we believe the average person to be ill-mannered or malicious? <br />
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Deep thoughts...</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-62413530440035520692011-10-20T22:07:00.000-07:002011-10-20T22:07:02.116-07:00Welcome Warmth<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's not an unusual night. I'm just sitting here in my room, and have been for the last two and half hours as I've been working on my courses...but something feels different. <br />
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Nothing happened today that was out of the ordinary...but this isn't an ordinary feeling. <br />
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There's just some kind of excitement within me right now that feels fantastic! I feel happy and optimistic about what's in the near future, even though I have NO idea what those things will be.<br />
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<li> It's fall outside and I'm loving the weather! </li>
<li>I had a team party tonight and had pumpkin recipe foods ranging from entres to deserts. </li>
<li>Things are changing up at work, and I'm excited for it! </li>
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These are all possible contributors to this welcome elation, but I'm intrigued as to why I'm so suddenly feeling like I'm on cloud 9. Whatever it is that's causing this awesome feeling inside of me, I hope it keeps going!</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-48472130775584541802011-10-20T20:06:00.000-07:002011-10-20T20:06:11.274-07:00No worries<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
For thus saith the Lord: "I will contend with them that contendeth with thee—" -2nd Nephi 6:17-<div>
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I went and watched the movie <i>The Help</i> with my siblings last night, and it is good! It made me sick to my stomach to be reminded of how much hate people can have and have had toward others. However, the movie also conveys the power of selflessness and love towards others, as well. It was extremely well done, and I'd encourage anyone to see it, who has not already.<div>
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While on the topic of inspring media, I finished up watching <i>The Kennedy's</i> which is a mini-series that my roommate Billy had purchased. This was also an incredibly well done production, but I came away from this mainly just wanting to talk like the Kennedy's did, with their New England accents and what not. It's wicked Assuhm!</div>
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It's official, I've decided that one of my main problems in life is that I get anxious way too easy and then tense up and perform poorly.<br />
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<b>Exhibit A:</b> Mandy Stoddard in the 5th grade. Wow! Mandy was a real cutie, but I just turned into a love sick school boy around her. One day she came to my little league game and so naturally I felt the need to impress her. I actually WAS a prety decent hitter at the time, but not on this day. Three times up, three times down in shame while Mandy watched. Then she had to leave, and naturally my next time up with no one in the stands to impress, I hit a triple down the right field base line. Oh Mandy...<br />
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<b>Exhibit B: </b>Any game of basketball, or football...or any sport for that matter. When I'm relaxed I can do pretty well on most days. Catch me warming up to play basketball and you'd think I was decent. My stroke looks good, I make shots...and then comes game time, and there goes my form, and ability to make shots. It's silly, really. In a saddening kind of way.<br />
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<b>Exhibit C: </b>I do well around people and for the most part people tend to like me. I annoy some, which I understand, and I just don't click with others. I accept this. But for the most part, I'm a well-received fellow. I think that largely this is due to my ability to have fun, be relaxed and crack a funny joke here and there. If I'm lucky I get in a witty line or two. Similar to Exhibit A, when a cute girl enters the picture who I find myself interested in, it's all over. I become quite the tongue twisted, random rather than clever, not so confident fool. (This happened just the other night when I started this post, FYI)<br />
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Thus the problem presents itself and the solution begs to be had, how can I overcome this dilemma? I'd propose apathy, but let's face it...that only comes into play when I don't want to do something...such as my online courses which I'm avoiding right now. :D</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-80053243453054082132011-09-29T21:32:00.000-07:002011-09-29T21:32:53.131-07:00Update on Dating<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Just thought I'd provide a quick update on my dating life....ugggggg. That about expresses my attitude towards it right now as well. I just need someone to be excited about. Is this too much to ask? I submit that it is not!<br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: xx-small;">Yes, I realize that most people who reads this post will automatically think to tell me that I should not be so picky...To which I answer, "False, but thanks anyway".</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-91357459401316590272011-09-19T21:48:00.000-07:002011-09-19T21:48:10.954-07:00"Nuff said"<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
D&C 94:17 - <span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f9f6ed; color: #2f393a; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 22px;">And now I give unto you no more at this time. Amen.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="background-color: #f9f6ed; color: #2f393a; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', Times, serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 22px;">I love that the Lord ends this chapter of the Doctrine and Covenants with this sentence. He gives clear instructions to the brethren to whom the section is addressed and then says, "I've given you this. Do something with it first, and then we can go further." </span><br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-32779517717654745152011-08-30T21:26:00.000-07:002011-08-30T21:26:54.285-07:00It's here!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">My favorite season is here! A few days ago I was thinking how it's kind of sad that normally about this time of year I get excited about the upcoming fall, and the football season, and the crisp, chilled air, and hoodies, etc. and I had yet to fill that yet. Well, tonight as I walked out of the church building and it was dark, and I could hear the laughter of newly returned students in the church behind me, I got this rush of excitement and pure happines as it finally set in that that my favorite time of the year is here! Bring on the football, bring on new friendships and experiences, bring on the beautiful, glorious, fall weather!</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-88790967628728121572011-08-24T19:33:00.000-07:002011-08-24T19:37:33.621-07:00Thanks for the Memories, Jimmy!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">Tonight I came across a reference to Jimmy Eat World, and I had a moment of appreciation. Since high school, I've really enjoyed Jimmy Eat World's music. My junior and senior years of high school, I wore out this album:<br />
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<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8KRIuWp8jCntlhWXbf-oB6B81MM4w7JsyysjXhAvNdFwxGjarRhUpw1sWAv9S_Rrb5yOympnr82NEk_5h341RTib4HMTMyaNe3-uidVoQbcsgmspxx1TKytpgsR6SQf26TFjhlXRPClY/s1600/jimmy-eat-world-bleed-american1.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8KRIuWp8jCntlhWXbf-oB6B81MM4w7JsyysjXhAvNdFwxGjarRhUpw1sWAv9S_Rrb5yOympnr82NEk_5h341RTib4HMTMyaNe3-uidVoQbcsgmspxx1TKytpgsR6SQf26TFjhlXRPClY/s320/jimmy-eat-world-bleed-american1.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><div style="text-align: left;">I have plenty of great memories of me and friends in the car rolling down the southern California freeways with the windows down and the stereo up to full blast with some Bleed American playing. I'm pretty positive I wore the CD out from so many times of playing it. </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">Then, the first CD I got when I returned home from my LDS mission was Jimmy's latest (at the time) album:</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
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</tbody></table><div style="text-align: left;">My friend Rachel gave it to me, and I was so excited when I saw it! That CD also provided me with many great drives, several of which came on cool, California nights with crisp ear coming in my window as I drove home thinking about the events of my life and the possibilities ahead. I loved the excitement I felt on some of those drives when I thought of the unknown in the next few years ahead of me! </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br />
</div><div style="text-align: left;">It was really nice to be reminded of Jimmy Eat World tonight, because it made me remember how much I love these albums and then how much I love the memories attached to them. I've been feeling in a bit of a rut the past couple of days, and thinking about the fun times in the past with the songs made me a little nostalgic, but also excited for the next album (Whether it be Jimmy Eat World or whoever) that will act as a soundtrack to the good times ahead!</div></div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-76065196850493428652011-08-21T17:02:00.000-07:002011-08-21T17:02:01.666-07:00Have we really evolved as a society?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">I went to the demolition derby last night for the Utah County Fair down in Spanish Fork. Is it white trash? Yup. Was it awesome seeing hard hits, and cars getting smashed and rolled over? You betcha! I'm still not going to watch NASCAR though. Not gonna do it...<br />
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</div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5385579273831019251.post-26700275788423284262011-08-17T22:00:00.000-07:002011-08-17T22:00:01.828-07:00I didn't see that one coming...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">So I started writing a post in which I discussed the reality checks that I've had the past couple of weeks with all different areas of my life...read over it and deleted it. Why? Because it sounded like a pity party and I realized that as much as the reality checks threw some curves at me, life is still REALLY good!<div><br />
</div><div>Seriously, I'm pretty happy. In fact, it's kind of funny to me how out of some of these reality checks I've actually found hidden blessings that I didn't recognize at first. I guess that's one more reason to be thankful for opposition in life. It helps me readjust my focus to better line up with the Lord's, as well as to trust in Him that He's got my back. So I'm glad to say that what started out as a recipe for a sad country song, has turned into the little soap box testimonial you just read. </div><div><br />
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I'm always amazed when I think about how constant, and vital communication is in my every day life, in everyone's life for that matter, and yet how far away I am from mastering the art of it. It's fascinating to me how many different modes of communication there are, and how people can be so brilliant in one form, yet incompetent in another. It intrigues me that it can be so frustrating to try and speak to others through different types of communication only to realize that they don't even know you're trying to convey a message, because they don't speak that same language of communication. <br />
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Yes, communication is one of those topics that never ceases to interest me, but always finds ways to frustrate me. What I really love though, is when I can sit and talk to a person and know that I'm on the exact same page/thought process as they are, and that it happened without a word being spoken. Sometimes the loudest messages are those that are never spoken. </div>Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13673429448611125103noreply@blogger.com1