And he...chokes

It's official, I've decided that one of my main problems in life is that I get anxious way too easy and then tense up and perform poorly.

Exhibit A: Mandy Stoddard in the 5th grade. Wow! Mandy was a real cutie, but I just turned into a love sick school boy around her.  One day she came to my little league game and so naturally I felt the need to impress her. I actually WAS a prety decent hitter at the time, but not on this day. Three times up, three times down in shame while Mandy watched.  Then she had to leave, and naturally my next time up with no one in the stands to impress, I hit a triple down the right field base line. Oh Mandy...

Exhibit B: Any game of basketball, or football...or any sport for that matter.  When I'm relaxed I can do pretty well on most days.  Catch me warming up to play basketball and you'd think I was decent.  My stroke looks good,  I make shots...and then comes game time, and there goes my form, and ability to make shots.  It's silly, really. In a saddening kind of way.

Exhibit C: I do well around people and for the most part people tend to like me.  I annoy some, which I understand, and I just don't click with others. I accept this. But for the most part, I'm a well-received fellow. I think that largely this is due to my ability to have fun, be relaxed and crack a funny joke here and there.  If I'm lucky I get in a witty line or two.  Similar to Exhibit A, when a cute girl enters the picture who I find myself interested in, it's all over.  I become quite the tongue twisted, random rather than clever, not so confident fool.  (This happened just the other night when I started this post, FYI)

Thus the problem presents itself and the solution begs to be had, how can I overcome this dilemma? I'd propose apathy, but let's face it...that only comes into play when I don't want to do something...such as my online courses which I'm avoiding right now. :D

Update on Dating

Just thought I'd provide a quick update on my dating life....ugggggg.  That about expresses my attitude towards it right now as well.  I just need someone to be excited about. Is this too much to ask? I submit that it is not!

Yes, I realize that most people who reads this post will automatically think to tell me that I should not be so picky...To which I answer, "False, but thanks anyway".

"Nuff said"

D&C 94:17 - And now I give unto you no more at this time. Amen.


I love that the Lord ends this chapter of the Doctrine and Covenants with this sentence. He gives clear instructions to the brethren to whom the section is addressed and then says, "I've given you this. Do something with it first, and then we can go further."  


How often does this happen in our lives? It happens to me all of the time. I keep asking for more before I've done as much as I could without using the information and knowledge that I already have...and that's just silly.