As She's Walking Away

There's just something amazing about experiencing something for the first time and absolutely loving every minute of it. What's almost just as good is being able to experience it again and again and being excited each time.

So let's be honest, I haven't felt that in a while with any relationship that I've been in. I've had the opportunity of dating some awesome girls who I've been extremely blessed to get to know and have had some really fun times with; some of them I've even cared about a lot, but to have that feeling of pure excitement where I just can't wait to be around them again, and for it to be something that is exciting and something that I love each and every time...well it just hasn't happened in a while.

I'll tell you what has given me that feeling of pure excitement and enjoyment each time I experience it, as of late. The excitement has come as she's walking away. Yup, that's right, I love it every time "As She's Walking Away" plays on the radio. Zac Brown Band has done it again; they've given me the amazing feeling of being in love with a song all over again. Check it out!

Well How About Them Apples?!

Today was quite the interesting day in way of insights on my life.  Let me tell you about them:

1) This may sound quite odd, and possibly morbid, but today I realized that for the first time that I can ever recall, the thought of dying doesn't make me anxious at all.  Weirded out yet? Muhahahaha....but really, it's not like that. I LOVE life and hope to live to a ripe old age, but at the same time I really like the idea of having peace of mind and peace of heart when thinking about "what if?" Now, I can't remember for the life of me what chain of thought led me to this realization, and it doesn't really matter to me.  All my life I've been a worrier and the thought of what would happen if I died has always been unsettling (I don't think about it THAT much), even though I've never had a problem with death in general. I don't know, maybe I've always just had a guilty conscious from all of my shady behaviors. *shrug* I guess I finally feel that I am in the clear and going in the right direction. Most people will not find this very interesting, but this is one of the insights I had.

2) The other insight I had was not actually mine. It was presented to me by a friend/co-worker of mine who I've known for quite a few years now.  Somehow the topic of my being single came up, and he offered his opinion that I'm not married because I don't know what I'm doing in my life.  Now I thought this was pretty ridiculous at first, but after considering it, it may actually have some merit.  I've often joked about sabotaging myself by going after relationships that I didn't think I could get, and then once I had the chance, it just never worked out for whatever reason.  I'm definitely not saying that my friend's opinion is correct, but it's always interesting to consider the possibilities.

That's all I've got...

A Classic Little Diddy

This song is one of my favorite oldies, and warms my heart...and makes me dance.

Severe Frustration

So my last post was mainly in jest, and a bit sacrilegious, but since then I've become severely frustrated by the comment of a co-worker who shows constant ignorance compounded by the fact that they don't know better than to voice their ignorant views to the world.  Don't get me wrong, I believe in the freedom of speech and that people should be able to think for themselves, but for goodness sake, try and actually THINK before you speak once in awhile!

I by no means am a proponent of those with same sex attractions/relationship being joined by law and calling it "marriage".  My religious beliefs are that the term "marriage" is defined as a lawful union between a man and a woman.  I DO believe in equal rights for same sex couples though, and I do believe that they should have the same human rights that everyone else does, and that they should be treated like everyone else, and by that I mean that they should be respected and treated as human beings.

I get so frustrated with those who think they are better than others because of their sexual orientation, or the color of their skin, or the accent which they speak with.  Granted, I make jokes about all three of these groups in light heartedness just as I do about myself and others of my own preferences and characteristics (Point being that I do not show the proper respect, at times, for others that I should), but I do not do it in an attitude of being better than them. People are people and yes, we are all children of God. To love and to treat others respectfully is not to condone or agree with other people's actions, it is simply to act as Christ would act. 

I know that anyone reading this can call me out as a hypocrite on several things I do, and I am okay with being called out when I am one.  But no one who knows me can say that I do not strive to treat those around me as human beings, and that all of my teasing aside, I do not care for the happiness and welfare of others regardless of whether or not they are the same as me. I struggle with some personalities, and many choices that people make in their lives greatly sadden me, just as I'm sure happens at times to anyone reading this, but we should always seek to pay proper respect to those we disagree with. Hatred makes me sick.

Patience

They say that patience is a virtue and that it comes with practice...If I had the patience to keep practicing, I wouldn't need to be practicing in the first place, now would I?!  What idiot came up with that saying anyway...I hope it wasn't Jesus.

It's All In the Perspective

Things that I was reminded of today...

1) If you think life sucks...it does.
2) If you think life is awesome...it is!
3) If you look for a specific answer, often times you miss out on the right answer.
4) If you don't look closely enough, you may not see what you're supposed to see.
5) If you think you're the only one who is experiencing a certain hardship, you're most likely wrong
6) If you think everyone is paying attention to you, it's most likely just you.

Make of it what you will, but what these all add up to for me is that I'm incredibly blessed in my life, and I have the opportunity to help bless the lives of others.  When life is tough and feeling too overwhelming, and it often can feel this way, try a new perspective. It might help you focus in on what you need to see without missing the big picture.